Why do I want a relationship with my Savior?
Because for once in my life I understand the meaning of healing and what it looks like to be completely turned around in the depths of my darkness.
I strive to be in a relationship with this man because never again do I have to say, "no one will ever love me."
I want Jesus because of the chains I have been set free of in coming to know Him. I want Him because He desires me.
I have loved better, more deeply, more intently, and experienced love out of being washed by His grace.
Never again do I have to think that I have to be someone else to be loved because I am loved for my past and present state.
Why do I want this relationship? Because I have never understood the meaning of true love before Him.
It means I get to live for others instead of myself, which is the most suffocating place to be.
I get to have hope in my future and even in my death of who will be there for me. I want Jesus because I want to see every painful event in my life and in the lives of others as an opportunity to become a stronger, more relatable, loving person and not as the struggle I have to get through to survive.
I want Jesus because there is no better evidence of His work of change than in me and to have others experience what I have experienced would be the biggest breath of fresh air for my soul.
I want this because ultimately I want love; to be loved and to give love and to understand fully what it means to have both.
A relationship with Him means that I am not just a physical body but a soul that is delighted in, despite how much weight our society puts on physically beautiful.
It means I don't have to hang my head in shame of my past or wall myself up in my fears because I am afriad it will happen again. Because He has held me in His arms, I understand the benefit of pain and past events was all for a purpose.
I want a relationship with Him because he saved me, and there is no greater love than this.
